The sound of a mother’s broken heart…

… is excruciatingly empty…

This morning, Abu’s niece passed away due to acute renal failure and infection. She just celebrated her 3rd birthday 2 weeks ago…

I don’t even kno where to begin but it was a scene, that I hope none of us would have to go through.

We received the news of her passing at around 4am this morning. She was admitted in the Sungai Buloh Hospital ICU yesterday after none stop muntah2 and cirit-birit. They just came back from umrah last weekend…

All the way from Subang to Rawang, I thought to myself, ‘let’s not cry…’. But as soon as I saw her small body lying on the mattress, I broke down to pieces. I braved myself throughout the whole thing… From mandi jenazah, to kapan, to kebumi… I couldn’t help but imagine all the ‘what ifs’… What if it was me? Would I be as tough as her mother? How do we continue our lives without her? After everything was done, we went back to their place and I can’t help but stare intensely at the grieving mother. She was crying as people approach her to convey their condolences. She kept telling stories about her little girl that just went. As people started to subside, at one point, she just stared blankly at the walls and there was complete silence in her head. No sound of her daughter’s laughter, no sound of her crying… She was empty… And it was a painful sight to see…

Semoga roh arwah di cucuri rahmat… Al-Fatihah…

Takziah to Abang Nassir and Kak Ayu.

5 thoughts on “The sound of a mother’s broken heart…

  1. zezz says:

    the worst thing that could happen to a parent is burying her child…al fatihah, she’s ahli jannah now.

    it’s really tough to be a mom eh diud…cant help but to wonder ‘what if it’s my child?’ everytime…

  2. elly says:

    Al Fatihah.
    Takziah to both your BIL & SIL. This is just so sad. Cant help but shed a tear reading this.

    Zezz, i totally agree with you..

  3. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji’un

    It’s a horrible feeling to lose a child at such a young age.But that doesn’t God loves her less.Especially to a mother, these are trying times as a muslim.InsyaAllah, satu hari kita smua akan kembali kepadaNya, but in that time you’ll never know…an abundance of blessings might come your way.

    Condelences to your brother-sister in law from me and the hubby.

    xxx L

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s