The last picture I took in March 09
Assalamualaikum,
I hope you are doing well up there with God.
I’m having a bit of a gangguan emosi today. Tomorrow is your birthday. And I don’t think I can do anything but cry tomorrow. So I’m writing this today. Because I kno tomorrow my eyes will be puffed up and I won’t be able to see the screen properly.
It’s been a while since I cry. I had a busy day today. Abu and I went to Shah Alam and finally registered our company. Can you believe it? Our own company? If you dunno yet, he’s making and selling his own satay now. Yeay!!! I kno, right? So exciting right? We started before raya but now he ‘s really doing it. We should have done it a long time ago so that you could share the excitement. I’m sorry about that.
And if you dunno, we (Ajan and I) are moving to your house. I kno!!! Finally the house will be noisy right? I’m sorry we didn’t do it earlier when you, so many times, have suggested to us. I’m really, really sorry.
The gals are healthy and great. Khadeeja now eats a lot and speaks a lot as well (although half of the time we don’t understand what she’s saying). Ameena is also growing up pretty fast. She’s trying to stand on her own already. Her hair? It is still like that. Very fine and thin. Yes, I put baby oil like you asked me to. It’s ok. She’ll have hair by the time she goes to school. If she doesn’t, we’ll let her wear tudung to school. 🙂
Anyway, the reason why I’m writing this up to you is because I want to be the first person to say ‘Happy Birthday’ to you. I kno this is cheating but hey, who cares?! So, Happy Birthday to you in advance. Let it be known that I am missing you terribly and I have all the intention to be a little bit sad tomorrow. I kno you won’t approve on the crying but maybe I’ll cry in the bathroom where no one gets to see.
I will definitely write to you again.
With all my xo’s; Ze Grandzaughter
Ziahlicious 
mana la kau duduk lepas ni?
for now, merempat di ruma Haji Hamdan… Aku tgh cari rumah sewa.
rumah tu kat KK?
yes… kk…
Ziah, awat aku baca pun jadik emo..sedih weii..
aik suda mau pindah ka?
I saw the title and I knew what’s coming.
When he passed away a few months ago, I reached for the phone and talked to my Mom about you and him. I was so surprised when I found out my Mom knew what a great gentleman he was and talked about him with words full of admiration and love.
I remember thinking he was that monumental father figure in your life, and that his loss could not be replaced, the same way I have missed my maternal grandpa all these years. It gives me great comfort knowing they are now with God and no longer suffered the physical pain they had to endure during their battle with their illnesses.
You know he’s very proud of all of you and Ajan, the same way we your readers would come here (DAILY) and read all your updates and stories – sad and funny.
You have the power to touch people’s hearts.
I know these words couldn’t comfort you much, and that you achingly miss him but remember he thinks the world of you, and wants to see you happy and smiling and healthy all the time.
p.s. I love you! HUGS
i love u too…